I’m often assured by others that I am not the only one that has this problem but in my first draft I always find that my Protagonist hasn’t become the integral part of the storyline that they should be. Instead the story shifts and moves around them, I struggle to effectively link them emotionally to the narrative. I always seem to forget that the protagonist needs a reason to be part of the story, to want it to move forward, whether that is a reason for feeling that they need to solve the puzzle in front of them or that they should care about what is happening around them.
I can’t help but wonder if the way that instead my characters world just moves around him or her is reflective of my own view of the world and the way that I relate to it as present. To make sure that I stable and that I am in a solid enough mental state to help those around me when I need to I put up a lot of walls. I work very hard to protect myself and as a result I hold myself at a distance from people, I don’t let them in and as a result I find that I spend most of my time watching the world moving around me without interacting much with it.
This is the first time that I’ve really started to understand that I need to build up my own experiences to improve the quality of my writing, I need to start taking emotional risks in my everyday life to understand what that feels like and how that could affect my view of the world to allow me to truly write about it well. I guess it’s time for me to take a big leap and jump off an emotional cliff if I’m going to improve my writing and really create some worth while characters to put out there in the world for you all to enjoy! Wish me luck!